Been ages, true?

Yes, it has been YONKS. I have no net at home and it is killing me. I started reading again. IT IS SO BORING. And my phones an ass to use the internet. But anypoop, vas up 8)

So nothing new. Had an early bday party. Wasn't as good as you'd think. It kinda sucked. But the sleepover really cheered me up :)

So booked til new years. Theres three birthday parties, christmas, and a dinner. Speaking of dinner, I'm hungry 8) so like yeah.. this is a short odd post. But oh well, TOOTLES.

Meant to

It was meant to be, it was meant to happen, blah di blah blah. Destiny? Fate? Or whatever the deuce you wanna call it. I kinda believe it. Kinda. Like, I know everything happens for a reason. And I kinda live life like.. if something happened, good or bad, it was meant to. And I was meant to make that choice or I was meant to be with that person or I was meant to be who I am now and I'm meant to think how I think right now. And yeah, alot of things just slide by.

Like, when something major happens, I just think it was meant to happen and then im all okay about it. I've become so carefree. And nothing really bothers me. I dont mind ANYTHING. Well mostly anything. And it's like, when something happens and I'm meant to be angry, I'm not as angry as I'm suppose to be?

But anyway, destiny. It's weird cause sometimes the choices you made in your past creep back and you start to question: are you meant to go back to that? And you start to over think and then it just gets crazy.

It really is confusing. Especially when the past comes back. What the heck do you do?

Emotional outburst

I hate you. I cant stand to live in the same house as you. I cant stand to look at you let alone having to share what was mine. Having to isolate myself in my room because your presence disgusts me. I. Hate. You.

I cant live here anymore. I have a feeling im gunna starve myself to death in my room. Or probably end up breaking promises. And ive tried so hard...

Sigh, i'd write more but i really cbs on my phone, no net on lappy. And plus,
I feel sad.

Tears of joy

I've never had tears of joy, til yesterday.

I always wanted to know the feeling of it and I always wondered how people could be that happy that they would cry. I always found it weird. How can you cry? But I cant say that anymore :) I finally experienced tears of joy.

It is WEIRD. You're so happy and I guess its overwhelming. For me Ive been waiting months for a letter to come in that I started losing hope in it ever arriving. I soon forgot about it. Kind of. Maybe. I DID FOR A WEEK AND A DAY OKAY? Anyweigh, yah Ive been waiting and waiting and waiting then, miraculously, THE LETTER ARRIVES! I was so happy that I ran to my room and started crying. I was happy, nervous, sad, and excited all at the same time.

Happy because it finally arrived. Nervous because I was scared for what was written inside. Sad because it took soooooo long to come and excited because, well just because.

Ahhhh I've lost my tear-of-joy-ginity :')

I'm really happy ^^

LOOOOL

I showed my friend scott this wonderful sexy photo:

his response:

scott says:

*that is so pretty

rose, (W) says:

*i know

scott says:

*i want that on my ceiling

rose, (W) says:

*i want that in my shower

scott says:

*wow

*in your shower

rose, (W) says:

*what?

*no

*you said that

scott says:

*i want the man himself in my shower

Summers a betch

No not the person, the damn season.

So its been like, yonks since i've written, not really but yeah. YONKS I TELL YOU. But yeah, hi. I really dislike summer. I always get sick. And not just the sniffles and a little cough here. I GET SICK. Like, come-near-me-and-i'll-booger-infest-you sick. I have a fever. My nose is like a tap. I cough like a man. My voice sounds like a boy when he hasn't hit puberty. So picky when it comes to food. Headaches that hurt like no tomorrow. I can't tilt my head upside down. My throat hurts. I get dizzy every now and then. ASDJASKDESHTGHSHDFKHJ.

The only good thing about being sick right now is all the sneezing :D

BLESS ME

Weird ROSE fact #9:

Whenever I hear someone sneeze I have to say bless you. Even if it's a complete stranger, I must say bless you. Even when I sneeze, I say bless me LOL

Lets get creepy

Do you ever get that feeling like, when you're with someone you're close to and for some odd reason.. you just wanna hold their hand? Maybe out of curiosity? Hmm, or maybe you just want to but need an excuse to? Ierno.

It's weird true? Having a good time, talking, laughing, yada blah then suddenly, out of the blue, you long to hold their hand. Or maybe it's just me? Well, I've felt like that before. I even told my friend about it and the first thing that he said was "DON'T TELL ME YOU LIKE HIM". My response? A smile and me running 8)

But yeah, that feeling is weird. Comes out of no where. And if you do actually grab their hand, you will probably get a wtf face, which kinda sucks. And then it becomes awkward like a fish.

DBSK - Why did I fall in love with you

(Tis a good song, one of my favourites. Kinda feels relevant lol)

English lyrics: Why did I end up falling for you?

Why did I end up falling for you?

No matter how much time has passed,

I thought that you would always be here

But you have chosen a different road

Why wasn't I able to convey to you?

My feelings that were growing everyday and night

The words begin to overflow

But I know they won't reach you now

From the first day that I met you

I felt like I knew you

And the two of us melded together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together

It was so natural for you to be with me

We became adults together

But you chose a different road

Why did I end up falling for you?

No matter how much time has passed,

I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

Today, the day that holds a special meaning

The day that you stood with a smile of happiness

Praying to God in your beautiful appearance

With the person next to you who isn't me

The image of you receiving blessings

How could I just stand aside and watch

So why did I end up falling for you?

We can't go back to that time, or how we were (I've thought it through)

Why wasn't I able to take your hand?

No matter how much time passes

You always should've been by my side

Now it will never come true

But, even though I say that I need you close to me

I just pray that you will be happy forever

No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

you gotta

Weird ROSE fact #8:

I cannot, under any circumstances, sleep with my cupboard open.

Why? No not the boogieman, I killed him. I think it's cause I find it scary 8) and my mind starts picturing these evil octopus hands coming to grab me LOL