I never really had a person close to me past away. So i don't really know the feeling of having to lose someone forever. But when i see my family, cry their eyes out in pain, it makes me think "what in the fck was wrong with you rose? How could you possibly want to do something that will leave them like this?". And even though thoughts like "they wouldn't give a shit. They ignore me anyway. They'll think nothing would have happened" shout so loud in my mind, i know that they would care. Regardless of how many fights or shit i've been through with them.
But yeah, i've never had anyone close being taken away from me. And i hope i never have to experience it right now. It's scary to think how i'd feel and react. I probably would go insane more then i already am. I get so shattered when i lose a friendship. The only good thing about that is i still get to see their face and hear them talk and i still have a chance to mend the friendship and try to get things back to the way they were before. Not being able to do that? Just. I can't grasp the concept of it. I don't ever want that to happen.
So this year, i'm trying my hardest to mend friendships i've stuffed up or have lost due to school. I don't want to lose the chance of still being able to talk to them and regretting it later.
R.I.P.. @];--
Tuesday, 28 February 2012
Friday, 24 February 2012
And i don't know why.
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
That^ was on my aunty's facebook status and i thought i'd chuck it on here. Kinda makes you think doesn't it? Don't hesitate. Go for it.
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
That^ was on my aunty's facebook status and i thought i'd chuck it on here. Kinda makes you think doesn't it? Don't hesitate. Go for it.
Catch up on the Deb.
Okay i honestly don't know how i followed myself LOL. But anyway, i have officially given up on the deb. My friend sent me info on the deb and after reading it just felt so cbs. Plus, me no have partner :( so i'll make up an excuse to my mudder. And also, im cheap so :)
What's kinda fail though is that one of my friends changed one of the guy's (i asked to be my partner) no into a maybe. So if he says yes then i'm in a bit of a pickle 8) But knowing him he'll probably say no again so, no biggie. Still had one more guy to ask but i got too chicken shit and i don't know why LOL.
Anyhay, that's all :)
What's kinda fail though is that one of my friends changed one of the guy's (i asked to be my partner) no into a maybe. So if he says yes then i'm in a bit of a pickle 8) But knowing him he'll probably say no again so, no biggie. Still had one more guy to ask but i got too chicken shit and i don't know why LOL.
Anyhay, that's all :)
Your mouth is smiling, but your eyes look all sad. Why?
Have you ever really looked at a person's face? Not just look but see? Like, when you see a person smiling you just really look at their smile. Right? Or perhaps their whole face and how they look when they're smiling? But have you ever really noticed if the smile is real or not? Or if they're actually happy? I do it. I try to decipher a persons face. I don't know why, i just find it fascinating. I try to read their facial expressions and make sure i capture all their facial expressions.
Usually i look at the eyes. See where they're looking at or who. And have you ever noticed that some people tend to look somewhere and there's this... look in their eye, and you know that they're not here. They're thinking and you do that whole 'Hey?' *waves hand infront of blah-di-blah's face*. I find it interesting. You can tell when a person leaves the earth just by looking at their eyes. And even when you do it. You don't mean to stare, but your eyes somehow end up on someone?
I also find spacing out pretty cool. It's crazy. You completely leave the place where you are, and the surrounding sounds just soften in a way. It's like the thoughts you are thinking are so loud that it blocks out everything or maybe the scenarios you're thinking about become so real you focus on it instead of what's happening right infront of you. I don't know, i really went off topic LOL. MOVING ON.
Faces fascinate me. You could feel so shit inside, so sad, yet you can hide it with just a smile. It's like your smile is a ninja mask. You never really know if the person under that smile is really smiling or not. And your eyes are always visible, yet no one really looks into them.
You're smiling. Look closely.
Usually i look at the eyes. See where they're looking at or who. And have you ever noticed that some people tend to look somewhere and there's this... look in their eye, and you know that they're not here. They're thinking and you do that whole 'Hey?' *waves hand infront of blah-di-blah's face*. I find it interesting. You can tell when a person leaves the earth just by looking at their eyes. And even when you do it. You don't mean to stare, but your eyes somehow end up on someone?
I also find spacing out pretty cool. It's crazy. You completely leave the place where you are, and the surrounding sounds just soften in a way. It's like the thoughts you are thinking are so loud that it blocks out everything or maybe the scenarios you're thinking about become so real you focus on it instead of what's happening right infront of you. I don't know, i really went off topic LOL. MOVING ON.
Faces fascinate me. You could feel so shit inside, so sad, yet you can hide it with just a smile. It's like your smile is a ninja mask. You never really know if the person under that smile is really smiling or not. And your eyes are always visible, yet no one really looks into them.
You're smiling. Look closely.
Thursday, 23 February 2012
*dies*
SIGH. I asked a couple guys to be my deb partner. I got rejected. I feel sad :( And apparently.. this part makes me feel so shattered.. but one of the guys i asked asked me last year to go with them. They actually considered going and wanted to go with me but i replied: As if i'd go with you. ASDFGHJKL. I HONESTLY DON'T REMEMBER SAYING THAT TO HIM. I feel so shit it's not funny. I tried my hardest to remember, but all i can remember is receiving the note in maths.. and a glimpse of him. But that's all. Eugh. Fml. Asdfghjkl.
Anyway, today was okayish mish. Alot of comments on my hair. It suits you. It looks sexual. It looks amazing. You look hot. You look like a lion. Was nice *nods*
I'm a lion. ROARER. Heh, david ;D
Anyway, today was okayish mish. Alot of comments on my hair. It suits you. It looks sexual. It looks amazing. You look hot. You look like a lion. Was nice *nods*
I'm a lion. ROARER. Heh, david ;D
Wednesday, 22 February 2012
What's cooking good looking? Really? It looks burnt
AHOY HARTEYS! Harteys? Hearties? Something like that. Anypoop, i dyed my hair :D and i feel so weird. My mum keeps calling me blondie now T^T Anyway here.
i feel like an orangutan LOL
Monday, 20 February 2012
Sunday, 19 February 2012
Weird ROSE fact #10:
I eat samiches weirdly. Well, not really a samich but like the one bread one. Get? LOL anyway, i didn't go school today cause i had no lift and had to babysit for my mudder, so i took photos of how i eat the one-breaded samich :)
so like, NUTELLA IS SEXY
Then i fold it :D
I eat the corners
I proceed to eat the crusts so that it looks like...
THUS^
And then i just munch away...
Til it's all gone 8)
Yeah, i don't usually use a plate when i make sandwiches LOL. I am not lazy and only not use a plate to avoid more dishes, tsk, who do you think i am? Rose? Yeah that's right. Keep reading. KEEEEEEEP reading..
Saturday, 18 February 2012
I need a partner!
I have to attend this Debutante Ball thing at my school and i need a partner! D: think it's easy hey? It is not. Why? My family is expecting him to be taller then me. *dies* There is barely any guy taller then me that would actually consider coming with me. I have to find someone who's willing to and is over 171cm before this week ends. What also sucks, they HAVE to be attending my school. *SIGH.*
There is one person my friend suggested but i feel that it is too awkward to ask and i feel weird asking. Plus i have a gut feeling he'd reject so, that's gone. But i guess i'll still try. Maybe... DAMMIT.
I NEED A PARTNER.
There is one person my friend suggested but i feel that it is too awkward to ask and i feel weird asking. Plus i have a gut feeling he'd reject so, that's gone. But i guess i'll still try. Maybe... DAMMIT.
I NEED A PARTNER.
Thursday, 16 February 2012
100 questions
I saw this on facebook and decided to do it here cause facebook is judgemental and i'm more open here. Do the same for your blog if you want :).
1. Who did you last say 'I love you' to? In person: Trung Vo, Written: Jimmy Nguyen
2. Do you regret it? Not really
3. Have you ever been depressed? Yeah
4. Are you a boy or girl? Girl
5. Are you insecure? Yes
6. What is your relationship status? Single and complicated
7. How do you want to die? Either drowning, in a hospital after an accident or just being old
8. What did you last eat? Lunch; hungry jacks 8)
9. Have you played any sports? Not for a team
10. Do you have an attitude? Ierno really, wouldn't think so
11. Do you like someone? Complicated
12. What is your real name? Rosalie
13. Have you ever read a book? I've read many books
14. Do you hate anyone at the moment? I hate no one specific
15. Do you miss someone right now? Perhaps
16. Twirl or cut your spaghetti? Twirl?... LOL
17. Do you tan a lot? Nope
18. Have any pets? Love birds
19. How exactly are you feeling right now? Sad, shattered, regretful, hopeful and okay
20. Ever eaten food in the car while someone is driving? Always
21. Are you scared of spiders? Not really
22. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? No actually, otherwise i wouldn't be who i am today and i wouldn't be blogging this post right now
23. Do you regret anything from your past? I regret alot of things
24. What are your plans for this weekend? Not sure, babysitting probably and homework? As per usual ==
25. Do you want to have kids? Yush
26. Do you type fast? I'd say so *dusts shoulders*
27. Do you have piercings? Yes i do, and i want to get more
28. Can you spell well? Pretty well
29. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes, i miss alot of people
30. What are you craving right now? Green mango dipped in vinegar and salt or celery/gerkin dipped in spring onion 8)
31. Ever been to a bonfire party? This isn't america
32. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes i have *tips hat*
33. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Yes and i feel so shit and sorry for them. Yes i said them, i've broken more than one heart
34. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.. Hurts like a betch
35. Are you thinking of someone right now? Perhaps
36. Would you live with someone without marrying them? Uh.. Yeah i guess
37. What should you be doing right now? Copying work from a friend's exercise book (A)
38. What's irritating you right now? The fact that the reply i recieved from a heartfelt conversation today was just 'oh okay'
39. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes
40. Does somebody love you? Yes
41. What is your favorite color? Black, white, blue and orange
42. Have you ever changed clothes in a car? Yes
43. Milk chocolate or dark chocolate? Either
44. Do you have trust issues? Yuppo
45. Best friends name? David Mendez
46. 2nd best friends name? Trung Vo
47. 3rd best friends name? Ben Kyupers and Jake Giordimaina
48. Who was the last person you cried in front of? EVERYONE AT MY 16TH BIRTHDAY PARTY. OH THE EMBARRASSMENT *dies*
49. Do you give out second chances too easily? I wouldn't say so
50. Is it easier to forgive or forget? Neither, it depends what person you are. Some are the type to easily forgive and forget whereas others hold a grudge. And sometimes they forgive but they will never forget. But i guess for me, i find it easier to forgive. I will never forget.
51. What was your childhood nickname? Rosalikki, Rosie-san, Rosarimali and mokstahh < (dont ask LOL)
52. Favorite food? Not sure
53. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? I guess so
54. Did you have a dream last night? Yes, don't really remember it
55. Have you ever been out of the state? I've been to New Zealand 8) Fush and chups
56. Do you play the wii? I find it boring
57. Are you listening to music right now? Nope, Big Bang Theory is on TV though
58. Do you like Chinese food? Yes *peace sign*
59. Who is the last person you texted? Kien Dat Phan
60. Are you afraid of the dark? If i'm alone
61. Is cheating ever okay? NO cheating is stupid. If you want someone else, break it up with the person you're with instead of hurting the shit out of them and making them feel like killing themselves cause they're not good enough for you to stick to them and be faithful
62. Are you mean? If i'm pissed, yes
63. Can you keep white shoes clean? Never LOL
64. What year has been your best? I haven't experienced it yet
65. Do you believe in true love? Mmmm.. yeah i guess so
66. Favorite weather? Cold, a bit of rain, so cloudy that there is no blue in the sky. It's just white. From time to time, a peak of sun light escapes through the gaps in the clouds
67. Do you like the snow? I hate the snow LOL
68. Does it snow a lot where you live? No, it hails though
69. Do you like being outside? Yes
70. Do you want to get married? Eventually
71. Is it cute when a boy calls you baby? No, if someone calls me baby or any cute lovey dovey nick name, i will fly kick them in the face. Unless they're my boyfriend then it doesn't bother me as much
72. Are you hungry? No.. LOL
73. What makes you happy? I cannot answer this
74. Would you change your name? Nah, my middle name yes ==
75. Do you watch the news? Not really
76. What is your star sign? Capricorn
77. Do you like subway? Yeah it's okay
78. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them? Yes... (A)
79. Is there someone of the opposite gender who you can act your complete self around? Perhaps
80. Who was the last person of the opposite gender you talked to? In person: David Mendez, Net: Danh Nguyen and Trung Vo, Text: Kien Dat Phan
81. Do you feel good? No
82. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Jimmy Nguyen..
83. Can you count to one million? No way, i get too cbf LOL
84. Are your finger nails painted at the moment? Yes, black and white
85. Favorite number? 13
86. If you could pick two people to be stuck on a stranded island with, who would it be? God and Jesus
87. Favorite subject in school? All my subjects are kick ass this year but probably Maths and Studio Art
88. What three people do you trust the most? David Mendez, Trung Vo and Danielle Pamplona
89. Who do you think has amazing hair? Desiree Cremona
90. Parents divorced? Yeah
91. What city do you live in? Melbourne
92. Where were you born? Australia, Victoria; Sunshine Hospital
93. A cute person that liked this status? Not on facebook so like no
94. What two people do you miss talking to? Tommy Tran and Demi Tran
95. Who will you be with this weekend? Me, myself and i
96. City or country? Neither
97. Mountains or beach? Mountains
98. Water or soft drink? Water, unless the soft drink is Mountain Dew
99. What should have been invented? A device of some sort that cures all cancers and diseases
100. Was this a waste of my time? No
1. Who did you last say 'I love you' to? In person: Trung Vo, Written: Jimmy Nguyen
2. Do you regret it? Not really
3. Have you ever been depressed? Yeah
4. Are you a boy or girl? Girl
5. Are you insecure? Yes
6. What is your relationship status? Single and complicated
7. How do you want to die? Either drowning, in a hospital after an accident or just being old
8. What did you last eat? Lunch; hungry jacks 8)
9. Have you played any sports? Not for a team
10. Do you have an attitude? Ierno really, wouldn't think so
11. Do you like someone? Complicated
12. What is your real name? Rosalie
13. Have you ever read a book? I've read many books
14. Do you hate anyone at the moment? I hate no one specific
15. Do you miss someone right now? Perhaps
16. Twirl or cut your spaghetti? Twirl?... LOL
17. Do you tan a lot? Nope
18. Have any pets? Love birds
19. How exactly are you feeling right now? Sad, shattered, regretful, hopeful and okay
20. Ever eaten food in the car while someone is driving? Always
21. Are you scared of spiders? Not really
22. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? No actually, otherwise i wouldn't be who i am today and i wouldn't be blogging this post right now
23. Do you regret anything from your past? I regret alot of things
24. What are your plans for this weekend? Not sure, babysitting probably and homework? As per usual ==
25. Do you want to have kids? Yush
26. Do you type fast? I'd say so *dusts shoulders*
27. Do you have piercings? Yes i do, and i want to get more
28. Can you spell well? Pretty well
29. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes, i miss alot of people
30. What are you craving right now? Green mango dipped in vinegar and salt or celery/gerkin dipped in spring onion 8)
31. Ever been to a bonfire party? This isn't america
32. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes i have *tips hat*
33. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Yes and i feel so shit and sorry for them. Yes i said them, i've broken more than one heart
34. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.. Hurts like a betch
35. Are you thinking of someone right now? Perhaps
36. Would you live with someone without marrying them? Uh.. Yeah i guess
37. What should you be doing right now? Copying work from a friend's exercise book (A)
38. What's irritating you right now? The fact that the reply i recieved from a heartfelt conversation today was just 'oh okay'
39. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes
40. Does somebody love you? Yes
41. What is your favorite color? Black, white, blue and orange
42. Have you ever changed clothes in a car? Yes
43. Milk chocolate or dark chocolate? Either
44. Do you have trust issues? Yuppo
45. Best friends name? David Mendez
46. 2nd best friends name? Trung Vo
47. 3rd best friends name? Ben Kyupers and Jake Giordimaina
48. Who was the last person you cried in front of? EVERYONE AT MY 16TH BIRTHDAY PARTY. OH THE EMBARRASSMENT *dies*
49. Do you give out second chances too easily? I wouldn't say so
50. Is it easier to forgive or forget? Neither, it depends what person you are. Some are the type to easily forgive and forget whereas others hold a grudge. And sometimes they forgive but they will never forget. But i guess for me, i find it easier to forgive. I will never forget.
51. What was your childhood nickname? Rosalikki, Rosie-san, Rosarimali and mokstahh < (dont ask LOL)
52. Favorite food? Not sure
53. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? I guess so
54. Did you have a dream last night? Yes, don't really remember it
55. Have you ever been out of the state? I've been to New Zealand 8) Fush and chups
56. Do you play the wii? I find it boring
57. Are you listening to music right now? Nope, Big Bang Theory is on TV though
58. Do you like Chinese food? Yes *peace sign*
59. Who is the last person you texted? Kien Dat Phan
60. Are you afraid of the dark? If i'm alone
61. Is cheating ever okay? NO cheating is stupid. If you want someone else, break it up with the person you're with instead of hurting the shit out of them and making them feel like killing themselves cause they're not good enough for you to stick to them and be faithful
62. Are you mean? If i'm pissed, yes
63. Can you keep white shoes clean? Never LOL
64. What year has been your best? I haven't experienced it yet
65. Do you believe in true love? Mmmm.. yeah i guess so
66. Favorite weather? Cold, a bit of rain, so cloudy that there is no blue in the sky. It's just white. From time to time, a peak of sun light escapes through the gaps in the clouds
67. Do you like the snow? I hate the snow LOL
68. Does it snow a lot where you live? No, it hails though
69. Do you like being outside? Yes
70. Do you want to get married? Eventually
71. Is it cute when a boy calls you baby? No, if someone calls me baby or any cute lovey dovey nick name, i will fly kick them in the face. Unless they're my boyfriend then it doesn't bother me as much
72. Are you hungry? No.. LOL
73. What makes you happy? I cannot answer this
74. Would you change your name? Nah, my middle name yes ==
75. Do you watch the news? Not really
76. What is your star sign? Capricorn
77. Do you like subway? Yeah it's okay
78. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them? Yes... (A)
79. Is there someone of the opposite gender who you can act your complete self around? Perhaps
80. Who was the last person of the opposite gender you talked to? In person: David Mendez, Net: Danh Nguyen and Trung Vo, Text: Kien Dat Phan
81. Do you feel good? No
82. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Jimmy Nguyen..
83. Can you count to one million? No way, i get too cbf LOL
84. Are your finger nails painted at the moment? Yes, black and white
85. Favorite number? 13
86. If you could pick two people to be stuck on a stranded island with, who would it be? God and Jesus
87. Favorite subject in school? All my subjects are kick ass this year but probably Maths and Studio Art
88. What three people do you trust the most? David Mendez, Trung Vo and Danielle Pamplona
89. Who do you think has amazing hair? Desiree Cremona
90. Parents divorced? Yeah
91. What city do you live in? Melbourne
92. Where were you born? Australia, Victoria; Sunshine Hospital
93. A cute person that liked this status? Not on facebook so like no
94. What two people do you miss talking to? Tommy Tran and Demi Tran
95. Who will you be with this weekend? Me, myself and i
96. City or country? Neither
97. Mountains or beach? Mountains
98. Water or soft drink? Water, unless the soft drink is Mountain Dew
99. What should have been invented? A device of some sort that cures all cancers and diseases
100. Was this a waste of my time? No
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Chances come and chances go
You ever look back at the past and notice how many chances you had? Chances to tell someone how you feel, chances to mend a friendship, chances to do what you wanted to do. There were so many weren't there? It sucks when you realise what you had lost. Or what you could of gained.
I always wonder, will there be more chances? Will i be able to have a chance to do what i wanted to in the past? Will there be another chance in the future for me? So many thoughts. So many things i wish i had done earlier. Like, why didn't i say yes? Or why didn't i try my hardest? Why didn't i feel that way before, why must i feel that way now? I can't stop thinking about why. Why, why, why. Why didn't i. Why didn't i take that chance? Why didn't i take that leap of faith? Why must i feel so much regret now? It's annoying. And almost shattering.
I just wish i went for it. I wish i didn't doubt and wonder about the future. Ironic now isn't it? I was so scared what would've happened when now i am wishing it had happened. To think i say 'live life with no regrets', when i'm regretting so much right now.
Atleast i have experience for the future. No matter how nervous or scared i am or how much i am doubting and pondering about the future, i am going to take that leap of faith. No more will i linger in the past and regret. The next chance i see, i will take it.
I always wonder, will there be more chances? Will i be able to have a chance to do what i wanted to in the past? Will there be another chance in the future for me? So many thoughts. So many things i wish i had done earlier. Like, why didn't i say yes? Or why didn't i try my hardest? Why didn't i feel that way before, why must i feel that way now? I can't stop thinking about why. Why, why, why. Why didn't i. Why didn't i take that chance? Why didn't i take that leap of faith? Why must i feel so much regret now? It's annoying. And almost shattering.
I just wish i went for it. I wish i didn't doubt and wonder about the future. Ironic now isn't it? I was so scared what would've happened when now i am wishing it had happened. To think i say 'live life with no regrets', when i'm regretting so much right now.
Atleast i have experience for the future. No matter how nervous or scared i am or how much i am doubting and pondering about the future, i am going to take that leap of faith. No more will i linger in the past and regret. The next chance i see, i will take it.
Friday, 10 February 2012
Let's hug
You can tell a lot about a persons feelings by a hug. Do you ever think about it? Whether a hug meant anything when it was suppose to or whether a certain hug went for too long and etc. I find it interesting so i came up with what i think different hugs mean and the definition of the hug.
The pat-a-back hug:
The hug where you or the other person pats on the back. My definition: you don't really like this person, and vice versa, but you thought you'd be friendly. The pat indicating you want the hug to hurry and end. Or i guess some people are just back-patters.
The awkward hug:
The hug where you don't know if you're suppose to hug then if you do you don't know whether your arms go over or under and when you finally hug, there's that awkward tension. My definition: you're awkward. Go away. Nah, honestly i really don't know. I guess it happens with people who haven't seen each other in a long time and you kind of lost that close friendship or what not and to people who've never hugged before.
The empty hug:
The hug where you hug but you get a gut feeling that the other person doesn't feel any emotion towards you and it doesn't bother them if they hug you or not. When you hug it's just a hug. No emotion what so ever. Definition: they see you as a friend and don't think the hug is suppose to mean anything.
The long hug:
The hug where it goes longer then a regular hug. Definition: neither of you want to let go so your just there hugging or your clueless on to when to let go.
The sorry hug:
Like the long hug, this goes for ages. Meaningful and either of you end up laying your head on the other person's shoulder. The definition is within the name. You are either apologising for something you have done to them or you have sympathy towards them and are comforting them.
The quickie hug:
A hug that's quick. They just put your arms around and that's it. Nothing more. Definition: they are rushing to get somewhere, they just generally hug like that or they don't feel comfortable hugging you.
The hug-tight:
The hug where the other person hugs tight; squeezes you. The hug is meaningful. Definition: they love you/they miss you or they wanna get in yo panties. Heh.
That's all i have so far and really can't think of more. My mind is everywhere and no where. But yeah, hug's are much more meaningful then you'd think. You could probably find the answer to a question you'd been pondering about someone or how a person feels today and stuff. I like hugs.
The pat-a-back hug:
The hug where you or the other person pats on the back. My definition: you don't really like this person, and vice versa, but you thought you'd be friendly. The pat indicating you want the hug to hurry and end. Or i guess some people are just back-patters.
The awkward hug:
The hug where you don't know if you're suppose to hug then if you do you don't know whether your arms go over or under and when you finally hug, there's that awkward tension. My definition: you're awkward. Go away. Nah, honestly i really don't know. I guess it happens with people who haven't seen each other in a long time and you kind of lost that close friendship or what not and to people who've never hugged before.
The empty hug:
The hug where you hug but you get a gut feeling that the other person doesn't feel any emotion towards you and it doesn't bother them if they hug you or not. When you hug it's just a hug. No emotion what so ever. Definition: they see you as a friend and don't think the hug is suppose to mean anything.
The long hug:
The hug where it goes longer then a regular hug. Definition: neither of you want to let go so your just there hugging or your clueless on to when to let go.
The sorry hug:
Like the long hug, this goes for ages. Meaningful and either of you end up laying your head on the other person's shoulder. The definition is within the name. You are either apologising for something you have done to them or you have sympathy towards them and are comforting them.
The quickie hug:
A hug that's quick. They just put your arms around and that's it. Nothing more. Definition: they are rushing to get somewhere, they just generally hug like that or they don't feel comfortable hugging you.
The hug-tight:
The hug where the other person hugs tight; squeezes you. The hug is meaningful. Definition: they love you/they miss you or they wanna get in yo panties. Heh.
That's all i have so far and really can't think of more. My mind is everywhere and no where. But yeah, hug's are much more meaningful then you'd think. You could probably find the answer to a question you'd been pondering about someone or how a person feels today and stuff. I like hugs.
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
Just a thought
It's odd how we've so much history yet we don't have any at all. We're so close it's crazy yet we're not so close at all. Laugh with others always yet we don't laugh together at all. To think we call each other best-friends when we aren't really friends at all.
~We seem to have feelings for each other yet we seem to not have any at all.
~We seem to have feelings for each other yet we seem to not have any at all.
Monday, 6 February 2012
You've got alot to say, for the one that pushed me away
Feeling pretty down lately. Ever since school started actually and i really don't know why. I was looking forward to school, believe it or not. But everyday after school i just want to sleep and stay in my room. Sometimes i just collapse on the bed and stare out the window. Either it's because of you, or i'm feeling depressed again.
Nostalgia
Nostalgia
Saturday, 4 February 2012
Be yourself.
But what if no one likes who i am? But what if i don't like who i am? But what if everyone back stabs me because of who i am? But what if everyone turns on me and hates me for who i am?
Yes, but what if everyone loves who you are? What if everyone wants to be your friend because of who you are? What if everyone talks about how awesome you are because of who you are?
Those thoughts in your head, the ones constantly bringing you down, they are limiting you from being as great as you can be. You think you're not good enough? There are others who think differently. Think you're not as good looking? There are others who think differently. Think you're not strong enough? Well guess what, there are others who think differently. Never say that no one likes you for who you are. Because there is atleast one person who admires you. Who wants to be just like you. Who tries to act or dress like you. No matter what, there is always that one person who does that. And you never know, there could be plenty of other people who admire you for being you.
And so what if there are people who don't. As people say, haters gon' hate. So let them hate. Let them waste their time trying to be better then you. Cause you know they'll never succeed.
Also, if you're a player or a back stabber or whatever, then fair enough. If that's who you are then there's nothing anyone can do. It's your choice to choose those paths and you take all consequences that follow. Losing friendships. Losing relationships. Losing everything. Whatever floats your boat.
So be yourself. If people don't like it then they can gtfo. Just remember that there are people who admire you for you. Don't try to live up to someone elses expectations of you. You are better being you and not someone you're not. Never try to be anyone but you.
Yes, but what if everyone loves who you are? What if everyone wants to be your friend because of who you are? What if everyone talks about how awesome you are because of who you are?
Those thoughts in your head, the ones constantly bringing you down, they are limiting you from being as great as you can be. You think you're not good enough? There are others who think differently. Think you're not as good looking? There are others who think differently. Think you're not strong enough? Well guess what, there are others who think differently. Never say that no one likes you for who you are. Because there is atleast one person who admires you. Who wants to be just like you. Who tries to act or dress like you. No matter what, there is always that one person who does that. And you never know, there could be plenty of other people who admire you for being you.
And so what if there are people who don't. As people say, haters gon' hate. So let them hate. Let them waste their time trying to be better then you. Cause you know they'll never succeed.
Also, if you're a player or a back stabber or whatever, then fair enough. If that's who you are then there's nothing anyone can do. It's your choice to choose those paths and you take all consequences that follow. Losing friendships. Losing relationships. Losing everything. Whatever floats your boat.
So be yourself. If people don't like it then they can gtfo. Just remember that there are people who admire you for you. Don't try to live up to someone elses expectations of you. You are better being you and not someone you're not. Never try to be anyone but you.
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