You ever look back at the past and notice how many chances you had? Chances to tell someone how you feel, chances to mend a friendship, chances to do what you wanted to do. There were so many weren't there? It sucks when you realise what you had lost. Or what you could of gained.
I always wonder, will there be more chances? Will i be able to have a chance to do what i wanted to in the past? Will there be another chance in the future for me? So many thoughts. So many things i wish i had done earlier. Like, why didn't i say yes? Or why didn't i try my hardest? Why didn't i feel that way before, why must i feel that way now? I can't stop thinking about why. Why, why, why. Why didn't i. Why didn't i take that chance? Why didn't i take that leap of faith? Why must i feel so much regret now? It's annoying. And almost shattering.
I just wish i went for it. I wish i didn't doubt and wonder about the future. Ironic now isn't it? I was so scared what would've happened when now i am wishing it had happened. To think i say 'live life with no regrets', when i'm regretting so much right now.
Atleast i have experience for the future. No matter how nervous or scared i am or how much i am doubting and pondering about the future, i am going to take that leap of faith. No more will i linger in the past and regret. The next chance i see, i will take it.
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