My mind is unsafe

One of my new years resolutions this year was to go through the whole year without cutting.

You have no idea how freaking hard it is. Cause constantly, you get this voice in the back of your head. It feeds your mind with hurtful words. Lies? You'd like to believe they are. But no matter how much you tell yourself they are lies, you just always seem to believe the voice in your head. That voice that speaks so loud. So loud you can't even think properly. And you feel like the only way out is death.

It's hard, you know? But with every cut, comes the scar, then comes the reminder that I lived because I'm better than this and I can be better. I was meant to survive that cut. And I'm meant to survive til the very end.

Though, no matter what, the voice will keep talking. And talking and talking and talking. Bringing me down. Making me feel useless. But I'm actually going to try and ignore it. No matter how low I will get this year, I will not fall.

Because I'm better then this.