When you need to talk to someone but everyone just turns into these people with masks who make promises they don't keep. The feeling of having trust issues.
Everyone has atleast one person who they could say anything to and not be judged. Who would keep there secrets and be there for them no matter what the time. To give advice. To be your source of sane in a world of crazy. To just be there in general. Not having to do anything. Just listening to what you need to let out would help in many ways. Everyone atleast has someone like that. Or use to.
It sucks when you tell someone your most deepest secret. How you honestly feel about something. And when you make them promise you not to do anything about it or say anything to anyone, they break it. Shattered? To the core.
You'd think they wouldn't do anything. Or atleast wouldn't go telling people about it. And it seems like at that point, the point where people know and the result of their actions, you just feel so lost and insecure. People just turn into these masked clowns. Happy chappy and all cool with you and your secrets but behind the face paint is just someone staring at you with an evil smirk. So your just left with your thoughts. Racing within you; trying to find a way out. Shouting at you. Creating worse thoughts. Clouding your mind like a mother fudger. And soon, thoughts and life just become harder and harder to deal with.
Though along the way you find someone who comes close to being that someone you trust fully, but suddenly they give you a reason not to. Not always though. People are lucky. I'm just not one of them.
One day Rose, one day.
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