That one.

Through life there will always be that one person who you liked more than the rest. And so far I have found that someone. Which sucks. It sucks burnt asshole.

What sucks the most is that you constantly wonder if they still like you. Constantly. They haunt your mind. You're stuck wondering about them. How they are. If they're happy. Do they think about you too. Or is there life better without you. You want to ask but you're either too scared or lost contact with them entirely.

Another sucky thing. No matter how hard you try to forget them, it's impossible. It's like you try to look for them in other people. You might forget them for a while, but eventually they'll come creeping back into your mind. Then there's the songs that remind you of them. Or people might say something that they said. Everything just has a sticky note on it saying they're name. You're heart skips a beat because you thought you saw them. They take up most of your mind. And you wouldn't have thought you'd get this addicted.

The heartbreaking thing is knowing they've got a happier relationship with someone else. Shattering. Then you try and find someone. Proving you're over them. Though... you think you're over them, there will always be feelings for them locked inside. Til perhaps one day, you find another person who becomes that one. Or so you think.

Time won't do shit. Maybe for the lucky ones. But so far, I see no change.