Now they know.

I'm walking down the corridor and the year ten co-ordinator who said he had to talk to me for weeks finally caught me. Been ninja avoiding him for weeks T^T. Anyway, he started talking to me and asked why I hadn't been going school and why I was always late. I told him I had my reasons. So he took me to his office to talk. Oh the joy.

The questions became deeper and the words that made me break and cry was "I've been noticing for the past 2 months how unhappy you look". Honestly, I was REALLY surprised. A teacher notices. What the fish. None of my friends noticed at all. It's weird how he could see past my fake face I put on. Unless he was just bsing then pshh, assface LOL. What made me feel weird was when he made me laugh and he said "See. That laugh. I missed that. I haven't heard you laugh like that in a while". *in head: uhh... you have a wife...*

So after a period of talking to him and answering questions, he said I should talk to a teacher who was with the welfare. Thinking, I say Why not. The teacher sat me down and we talked some more. She made me sign this contract where I would "try not to harm myself again". And if I ever feel shitty I would call someone or go to them if it were at school. And yeah, then after school I hung out with my bestie and other friends of his. Was fun. Felt awkward though cause I had no idea what they were talking about LOL. But they are pretty cool :D

I guess what sucks the most about the whole day is how they had to tell my mum about the self harming. But like I expected she said nothing about it. She's like "You're school called and told me about you slashing your wrists again". And that was about it..

Sighh.